Friday, May 29, 2015

Rediscovery

Ugh. I feel like I go through each day thinking of all this stuff. Lots on my mind, lots in my heart, and I want to do something with it. So many thoughts that I can't really grasp onto them, and then I try to write it all out and it's like I'm just stuck. I don't know how to put it out there anymore, so lists for now will have to do.

Having a really cool time interning at a nonprofit at the Kentucky Horse Park, called Central Kentucky Riding for Hope. They help children and adults with special needs recover using horse therapy and it's becoming such a rewarding experience. I've seen the final product of their main fundraising event in a few weeks and am absolutely loving the grunt work of behind the scenes and seeing what goes into this huge and beautiful production.

Figuring out what this 'freshman year is over' feeling is. Thinking about how this year was, how sophomore year is going to be, how a lot of school related things are going to be.

Stuck in summer mode, yet home mode. If I thought last summer was weird being stuck between high school and college, being at home and stuck in the middle of college is almost even weirder.

Thinking about people and relationships and who brings positive energy into my life and who doesn't. It's a real game changer.

What do I even enjoy anymore? What makes me think? How can I keep doing big things? What are my dreams?

Going to Europe in a few weeks and really absolutely excited for that. We were supposed to go last year but last minute, a few things happened and we had to postpone, so the excitement has just been building up. Thinking more about exploring and new adventures and new things and new people and just overall new.

What this blog is anymore. I've been letting jealousy and comparison get too much to me, which really isn't good. Side note, I really need a blog change. I love the pink and the bows and such but I think the focus of my blog has changed a little. Grown up, I guess I'd say. But yo girl is too broke to hire someone to do it....so if anyone wants to give me some free help I'll give you all the promotion you want. Just let me know! But really. I rant too much about this blog and I truly love it, I just need to rediscover it. I love writing but sometimes it's really hard and I want to force myself to sit down and write each day, even if it's never posted. This little huge blog world has helped me in so many ways and I want to get back into it.

Being more creative. My summers have always been full of crafting, but last summer, too much Monogram Meredith crafting took over. It was great and I loved it, but I want to get more into other things this summer and try more.

Same goes for eating and cooking. I'm saddened by the fact that I haven't baked in forever, but I want to rediscover that love of creating food again.

...and same goes for exercising. Getting out more, doing more things to make my body feel good.

I'm really glad it's summertime. All these things were things I had wanted to do during the year but the pressure of school and being in one spot was so difficult. Second semester was good, but there were lots of ups and downs, naturally, but the downs were harder to get out of. It all kind of piled on top, so I feel like rediscovering the things that have always brought me happiness is what I want to focus on this summer. And I'm really excited about it.


xoxo,
Meredith

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4 comments:

  1. Meredith are inside my brain right now?! Haha cause your post outlined how I feel many times. I struggle to express myself and my thoughts in writing and sometimes have a general feeling of confusion about what I'm supposed to be doing in life. Just some encouragement that you are not alone in this. Praying that you and I both will rediscover and enjoy doing the things we love and enjoy God in the process of doing those things:)

    xo Hannah-Kate

    www.thepreppyequestrian.blogspot.com

    PS. you're going to Europe?! GIRL THAT'S CRAY. PLZ TAKE ME WITH YOUUU

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    1. Awh this really means so much. I'm praying for you too, dear!!! Thanks a ton. :)

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